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This post is just to say HELLO to my one reader (mom)..I was just wondering if anyone else ever reads my blogs--or are my thoughts all a waste? Just curious. If you stopped by..and you read my blog.. drop me a comment. I'd love to hear from ya!

Reality is upon me....

Wow! It's been forever since I have blogged. To my one reader, if I even still have one (mom)... I am truly sorry. Since we have gotten back from our honeymoon, we have just been busy enjoying married life and I have not sat down to take the time to blog. As I said when I started this blog thingy, I write to get thing out of my head because if I don't, I picture my head exploding with green goo ooozing all over the place! I am a thinker, I over-analyze at times, I am a worry wart.. So I use this blog as my way to release my thoughts. As you can see from previous posts, my thoughts are not always serious-- sometimes they are actually pretty stupid! But today's blog is serious and I need to get this goo outta my head..before I start to ooze!


On Sunday 06/20/10, Father's Day.. a Lancaster Police Officer was shot and killed. His name was Officer Craig Shaw and he was the 1st officer to be lost in the Line of Duty in Lancaster. Here is a brief synopsis of what happened-- provided by The Officer Down Memorial Page (http://odmp.org/):

Police Officer Craig Shaw Lancaster Police Department, Texas

End of Watch: Sunday, June 20, 2010
Age: 37

Tour of Duty: 5 years
of Death: Gunfire
Officer Craig Shaw was shot and killed after responding to a shooting call at a local apartment complex in which a man had just been murdered. After arriving at the scene he and other officers began searching for the suspect. As the officers approached the man he suddenly turned and opened fire, fatally wounding Officer Shaw. Another officer returned fire and killed the suspect.The investigation revealed that the man who murdered Officer Shaw was the son of the Dallas Police Department's police chief. Officer Shaw had served with the Lancaster Police Department for five years. He is survived by his wife and two children (ages 13 & 7).


Anytime a police officer is killed in the line of duty, the pain and loss is felt among all police officer's and their families. Police Officers are brothers. They have bond like no other. Any police death is a tragic loss. Like always, these men and women died doing what they love to do. As you can see from above, this death has hit home a little harder, as the man who killed Officer Shaw was the son of the police chief in Dallas-- and as ya'll know, Husband works in Dallas and so this has been the main topic of most conversations!


Ok-- so here is where my goo is gonna start flowing out. Tomorrow is Officer Shaw's funeral as well as Husband's Birthday! We will be attending the funeral and this will be my 1st police funeral to go to. I am starting to build some anxiety in regards to going. I am scared.. and I am nervous... and I am almost sick to my stomach.

Being the wife of a cop is hard. I knew going into our marriage that being the wife of a cop would not be easy. Each night Husband goes to work, I always pray that he will come home safe the next morning...because I never know 100% that he will.

The plans to attend the funeral tomorrow has put the reality of this job in the forefront of my mind and it scares the crap out of me. When Husband goes to work, I cannot and will not allow myself to think of the unthinkable. I make the assumption he will come home safe. I have to make this assumption to keep my sanity... and I would probably think all other police officer's wives out there would agree. I am sure Mrs. Shaw did this same thing until Sunday. I have thought about and tried to imagine the feeling a wife would get when she gets that fateful knock on the door by fellow police officers. Officers who are there to tell her that her husband is gone..gone forever..never coming home. I cannot fathom in the slightest what the pain would be. Although I know that hundreds and thousands of officers, officer's wives & families, friends, and citizens will be attending the funeral tomorrow, I do not know how Mrs. Shaw and their family & friends can and will be strong enough to make it through the service... I am not sure how I will be strong enough to make it through the service. Because her reality is here. It was her time to lose the love of her life. The man she vowed to be with until death parts them, is now gone. What if next time it's Husband? I cannot say for sure that it won't be Husband. This puts a knot of fear in the bottom of my gut and this fear has buried in my soul.

All I can do is pray-- pray for the family of Officer Shaw. Pray that God will give them peace in this tradegy and for years to come. I pray for all other families and spouses who have lost their loved ones in the line of duty. I pray for God to protect all the men and women in blue that put themselves in harm's way each and every day..every hour they are working-- they are taking the risk of life and death..and they do it just to protect us all...to keep us safe. These officers do not do the job for money-- the money officers make are a joke (especially when you compare it to what athletes make)- it's disgusting. But they do the job for the love of the job. It is their passion, it is in their souls and I wish I could thank each and every one of them personally! I am privledged enough to see this passion every night when Husband goes to work and I am humbled by this passion. I pray for spouses and families of these officers, that they will never have to face the reality Mrs. Shaw and many others have had to face. And as for my family, I pray to God that He keeps Husband safe every night and brings him home to me every morning. However I know, if and when the day comes that God takes Husband home, it will be God's will. Husband would die for all of us--any day of the week, and minute of the day, because being an officer is what he loves and God bless him for that! Last but not least, I want to pray that Mrs. Shaw's nightmare never becomes my reality...because this reality sucks bad.
PS.. On a bright note, we will be celebrating the life of my Husband tomorrow afternoon! He is such a wonderful husband, father, friend and cop! I hope he has a fabulous day and know how much we all LOVE him with all of our hearts!

GROOVY THINGS!

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Pictures of Honeymoon

So we are back! Back from our amazing wedding and fabulous honeymoon! I went back to work this past Tuesday and is has been the week from hell getting back into routine and not being with my new HUSBAND every single minute of every single day! I miss him when we are apart-- even if it's just a few minutes.

I don't have all my wedding pictures back but here are just a few snippets on the honeymoon trip-- attached is also the link where you can see all of them!

http://www.kodakgallery.com/gallery/creativeapps/slideShow/Main.jsp?token=180944217115%3A1608330720&sourceId=533754321803&cm_mmc=eMail-_-Share-_-Photos-_-Sharee

Thank you HUSBAND for a fabulous Honeymoon. I love you more than I could ever show and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you!!

Proposed New TSA Airport Screening Procedures

Could be fun...but more than likely it would be REALLY scary!

Egg-cellent........

because these "cracked" me up!!!

OMG—Holy Mother of Pearl, Good Gracious on a Wheat Thin Cracker with Cheez Whiz..I AM GETTING MARRIED IN 10 DAYS!!

I cannot believe it! It’s here—our wedding is in 10 days and the time is here! I can feel it in every ounce of my soul. I get to do the one thing I have always dreamed of.. I get to walk down the aisle in my pretty white dress and become the wife to the man that was made for me. If you want to read all the wonderful reason's I love this man- see here!

I totally don’t think this work week is ever going to end. The time is crawling by and I cannot stop looking at the clock. I tried the put the little piece of paper over the clock on the computer (and anyone who has worked in an office setting for any length of time knows what I am talking about).. but anyway, I put the paper there to trick my eyes from looking at it.. And guess what, my eyes cheat! I have cheater eyes! I lift the corner of the paper & peak behind it. Pathetic! And then, if I get real lazy I just pick up my phone & look at that clock—or the one on my iPod, or the one on my iPod player..DAMN!...why does there have to be clocks everywhere?? OH—& don’t forget the watch on my wrist! Out of all 5 clocks that are within an arm’s length away from me, they all do the same shit, they go so slow!—All these clocks are STUPID! The time is crawling & with each passing second I am ready for the next. Waiting in anticipation because it is one second closer to be getting to do a lot of really cool stuff.

So let’s go with that cool stuff statement; I am sure all of my 2 readers (thanks sister- she emailed me today & said she is an avid reader—so now I have my mom & sister on board my blog trail!—YAY me!) ….Ahem, anyway what I was saying... I know all of my avid fans are wanting to know what are some of the things I am most looking forward to about the wedding events to come??…Therefore, in my aim to please all fans & in honor of the 10 day mark til the wedding, I will share what my ‘Most Look-Forward to Moments of Our Wedding’ are. (I know, this is exciting huh??.. more anticipation!.. maybe I should make ya’ll wait for the list, just like I have to wait for the big day. I am genius & other people will suffer with anticipation like me!! HA HA HA! But I am not mean and I know y’all are sitting at the edge of your seat waiting for my list)… So, here it goes:

1) Of course getting to say “I Do” to my sweet love. My honey, muffin, boo, love bug, sugar plum, hottie, gorgeous, sexy, sweetheart…And the nicknames go on and on..'Husband' is the new nickname after the wedding- I have renamed Patrick.. he will now be 'Husband' and he is ok with that!

2) Walking down the aisle and seeing (future)Husband see me for the first time in my pretty dress.

3) Becoming a step-momma to 3 great kiddos! They think I am crazy—ok, so maybe I am—they know they love me though—how can they not?? (Man, I am all about lovin’ me some me today!)

4) Getting to be all prettied up by other people! I love having people make me look beautiful! It’s a hard chore doing it every day myself so it will be nice to be pampered on our special day! HEE HEE- I funny!

5) Seeing my mom cry like a baby- which I know I will be too!

6) Seeing if the airbrush makeup really does not cry off. If this make-up can sustain my emotions on this day, it will be Miracle Makeup!!

7) Having a keg and lots of wine at the reception!

8) Being the center of attention for the day (I know, once again.. me being selfish—but come on now, what Bride doesn’t want to be the center of attention on her big day right?? RIGHT! Cuz I say so!)

9) Smoochin Husband during the reception and being all couply and stuff. I love this part!

10) THE WEDDING NIGHT AND HONEYMOON!

So, there it is y’all. I know the climax was breathtaking (hee hee, I said climax)..I hope you can all sleep better knowing the top 10 things I am most excited about in the wedding events to come!!
PS.. Have I mentioned, I am getting married in 10 days??? 10 DAYS!!!!!! Holy Mother of Pearl, Good Gracious on a Wheat Thin Cracker with Cheez Whiz! I am stoked!